Monday, April 25, 2011

In the Blink of an Eye.

So, four more days of class and four tests and I'll be done with my first year in college.  Is that not crazy?! I'll answer that is beyond crazy!  Last year at this time, I was worrying about my Senior Prom, sending out graduation announcements, and anticipating the big night. I was so wrapped up in everything and so excited about gaining a new sense of freedom that I wasn't even thinking of all the changes that would enter my life. Needless to say, the night of graduation, it hit me: I'm growing up and NOTHING is going to be the same after this moment.

And I was right... nothing has been the same.  There was a part of me way back in August that didn't even want to go to college. All I wanted was to stay where I knew what to expect and somewhere I was safe.  When I got to college, my view on the whole situation still hadn't changed.  I was excited for something new but I knew absolutely nothing, I was on my own, and I didn't know what to expect.  It was a rough couple of months.  My car (which I got for graduation and loved dearly) got hit and crushed forever, I had a four wheeler wreck with my dad, and my classes weren't the easiest.  I cried often (okay, maybe a lot) and I questioned myself on what I really wanted out of my college experience.

I would love to say that it was just a phase and I got over it in no time, but it really did take awhile to adjust.  By Christmas time, I still wasn't 100% I wanted to go back, but I did.  I knew that I needed to make the best of my year.  I became very passionate about children with disabilities and decided to declare my major.  I also became more involved with the Christian organization I was in last semester, but I started to put myself out there and participate in more activities.  I also found a much needed friend who just so happens to be my roommate next year in our new HOUSE! Not to mention, I was chosen to be a SPUR for next year's OSU basketball season.  It's all quite exciting and happened so quick.  Never in a million years would I have thought all of that could happen in a few months time. 

I have changed a lot since the beginning of the year.  Not that I've changed who I am, I've just rediscovered what is important to me and I'm very happy with what I found.  Even though this year is ending, I know that the summer will present me with even more challenges that will shape me into the woman God wants me to be. I'm even sort of sad to be leaving this tiny, undecorated, kind of smelly, almost unbearable, dorm life with my roomies.

God has done amazing things with me this year and I am truly blessed beyond belief.  He has placed people in it that I don't deserve and given me too many opportunities to turn my year around.  I'm happy to be done with school soon and for summer to start.  It'll be nice to get away and do my own thing without assignments and tests being shoved down my throat. 

I'll continue to blog during the summer, though I highly doubt I'll have as much to say.  Hopefully, my blogs are an inspiration to someone and they bring smiles to faces... I know they do to me.  For now, it's off to practice my speech for my presentation tomorrow (if you're reading this, say a little prayer please).